2 years of love!

I have been with my beloved for two years now. Well, we don’t actually have a “start” date in our relationship. Today, two years ago, was when he first kissed me. We had just finished one of our 5 hour long conversations at the Wine Loft enjoying a glass or two of wine and right in the middle landing of the staircase, he pushed me against a wall and kissed me so very intimately. My response to such a kiss, “That was hot!” And thus began us dating!

This relationship is different than any of the other relationships I have had. For the first time ever, I have been myself. Not someone somebody else wanted me to be, or what I thought they wanted me to be. I am 100% me in this one, and it’s a damn good feeling. Anyone who knows me knows that I can be inappropriate, don’t have a filter, and can be REALLY loud. And that’s perfectly ok in this relationship. I never get embarrassed or feel the need to change the way I act or respond to things. It’s all accepted and, dare I say, expected.

My relationship with myself has changed as well, which probably has to do with this relationship being the healthiest relationship—I myself am finally healthy. I have learned to love and accept myself completely. I have learned that my awesome German hips are something to be proud of. I have learned to be more accepting and forgiving of myself when I have done something that I may not necessarily like. I have learned to just live and love my life, because honestly, I have a great one. I have great people in my life, a family that supports and loves me unconditionally… I really am blessed with all that I have. And I think because of this realization that I have of myself that I found someone who is perfect for me. Someone who respects not only me, but himself; someone who loves me and also loves himself; someone who is here in the moment, in the now, and makes life fun.

I have never lived with a partner before because, well… they never lasted very long. After a year of dating we moved in together. I wasn’t nervous or scared, I was really excited! I had never co-habited before and I couldn’t wait! We’ve had a few adjustments, and some moments of not getting along, as in all relationships, but we keep trying. We stick it out and work it out. I’ve learned a lot about myself and about the person I share my life with. We’re always pretty much on the same track, but there are days, just like anyone, where the communication gets mixed up and leads to misunderstandings. But, open communication makes it easy to fix, instead of hiding it inside and over thinking something.

I am very thankful for this relationship, this partnership with my beloved. It’s been such a great two years, and I look to many more years. We are both on the same path in life, and we both want the same things. This year, we hope to travel abroad for 2-3 weeks, and hopefully be able to pull it off every year. Seeing the world is something we both want to do, and luckily we can see it together.

While it’s only been two years, it doesn’t feel like two years. It’s gone by quickly and slowly at the same time. I feel like I’ve known him forever, been with him for centuries, which I have but not in this life. We always find each other in each life, and I am so thankful for that. He’s my soul mate, I honestly believe and know it.  We’ll continue to find each other in our different lives. But more importantly, we’re in this life currently together, and what a beautiful life it is. I am a very, very lucky woman.